Ornamental State
Hello, welcome, what brings you here?
is it temporary? will you disappear?
do you ever stop to look around?
do you ever plant your feet firmly on the ground?
with a suffocating sound all the weight was gone
I never thought that I could open up
but in the end it tore through me, an opening…
Collect the pieces from the ground
the parts of you that were left around
if you never thought like this than would you complain?
until the walls break open and we look the same
with a suffocating sound all the weight was gone
I never thought that I could open up
but in the end it tore through me, an opening…
What do we really know about this place,
staring out from the inside?
what do we really know?
we’re in this ornamental state…
Leaves
When all of this has fallen and I’m waking up
The summer soon forgotten, it’s never felt so wrong
Back when we were young, hearts full of life
we never stopped to question why we kept it all inside
as the years leapt forward, all of this left behind
wouldn’t you like to know why?
All these rules they fill up our heads
and I’m not sleeping through this again
all these lines laid out straight ahead
they just won’t do…we’re calling out
When all the leaves have fallen and I’m raking up
the summer sun forgotten, it’s never felt so wrong
Back when we were young, hearts full of life
we never stopped to question why we kept it all inside
as the years slipped forward, all of this left behind
wouldn’t you like to know why?
All these rules they fill up our heads
I’m not sleeping through this again
all these lines laid out straight ahead
they just won’t do…we’re calling out…
we call you out
Good Little Robot
I woke from a dead sleep tonight
unafraid of the morning light
I’m going up the hillside to fight
I don’t care if it’s wrong or right…
and unless you know, I’m going on my own
I’m tired of this silence, tired of just doing as told
and I know what will come after…
this controlled disaster
see they got us all oblivious
staring blindly and carnivorous
a technological interference
a lack of self replaced with raw dependence
fucking feeding from the T.V.
like tiny rodents strapped to I.V’s
and I’ll do whatever you tell me
a good little robot, always hungry
for the latest product the T.V. sells us
Left alone to medicate
we’re compliant and still
operate, control our fate?
we’re complaint and still
It doesn’t have to be this way
we’ll be adverse I’m sure
waiting for another day
we’re compliant and still…
and the wolves have come in numbers for the weak
left alone here on trial for a foiled mutiny
and I failed…I fold…I’m sedated into sleep
now I’m quiet…now calm…none of this is happening
ya I am weak…
Play the Part
This Feeling in my bones
completely dissolves me
but I hold on tight because “that’s normal”
and I smile for the crowd ’cause “yeah, I’m fine”
I’ll play the part you’ll have me play
in passing crowds I’ll fade away
and all these words that spill from mouth
are fragmented and forgotten about
it will be just like it was before
I ever was
this never was
I’ll try
There’s no way out, go through it
I made my bed and I’ll use it
I fucked it up, abused it
I’ll lay undone and go through it
I’ll play the part you’ll have me play
in passing crowds I’ll fade away
and all these words that spill from mouth
are fragmented and forgotten about
it will be just like it was before
I ever was
this never was
I’ll try
Before I met you
I couldn’t care
tell me how will I
when you’re not there
(Don’t) Let This Go
Last night when all abandoned
I came out into the cold
full of might and wired to end this
your words they might be right
but you don’t let this go
let this go…
So when you walked in to find me
lost, ashamed, subdued
you knew that I was all but gone and cleansed of
all the hurt in you…
but you don’t let this go
let this go…
we all, we all take what we’re owed
beg you, steal you, don’t tell a soul
we all, we all take what we owe
beg or steal now don’t tell a soul
Surrounded by Faces
All my faults are on display
I’m not walking away
but I know now, it will never change
it’s not that easy
but don’t we love to complicate
I hold this in my fate
I’m sure somehow we could rearrange
to how it should be…
All of these moments
lead me to one,
and I’m alone,
surrounded by faces
and you’re not here
it’s where I went wrong
shifting walls to suffocate
folded over by weight
I’ve lost the will to operate
when you’re not with me
the empty space where you should lay
whispers to me…
All of these moments
lead me to one,
and I’m alone,
surrounded by faces
and you’re not here
it’s where I went wrong
it’s where I went wrong
Hold On/Let Go
All these faces are deceiving
many years of make-believing
I hold on and let go, I hold on and let go…
I’m amazed that I’m still breathing
artificially for reasons
I don’t know and it shows, I hold on and let go…
Would you believe me if I begged you?
you’re the only one who knows who I can be and I’m not,
you can see what they can’t
though it may seem strange that these words
contradict themselves, a lull, still
I hold on and let go, I hold on than let go
If we hold our fate in our hands
than we’ll hide away and make a plan
if it’s day to day, action figure, posable man
than we’re holding on against our will…
All these places are revealing
shifting walls and falling ceilings
I hold on and let go, I hold on than let go
If we hold our fate in our hands
than we’ll hide away and make a plan
if it’s day to day, action figure, posable man
than we’re holding on against our will…
than we let go…
I hold on than let go
I hold on and let go
The changing
All these changes, I swear that once I had a thought of my own
but life is erasing to make a person I cannot control
empty, hollow, now nothing is exactly how it seems
it goes on and on and on and on
The days we wasted, entranced in chasing the shadow of a ghost
were all for nothing, but the thought of something, something beautiful
and we all collide, collapse and hide, left alone and waiting
for the pulsing light and the reasons why the colours faded
We’re falling into this design we’re not making
we left us behind all the while for the changing
and it’s too late to find us now, let it come to rest
for now, don’t look down, it will come to pass
it will not last….
it goes on and on and on and on
As the ink gets dryer, the birds fly higher, now I can’t wash this off
and it’s no surprise, we realize, when it’s too late, what our fate is
We’re falling into this design we’re not making
we left us behind all the while for the changing
and it’s too late to find us now, let it come to rest
for now, don’t look down, it will come to pass….
Everything
It’s all I know and all we’ve shown for so long, now don’t let go
in a day or two it will seep through but not ’til it’s far too late…
I’m so careless and wasteful
I’ve been weak and ungrateful
for everything you are
but I need this more now
than I ever did before
and it’s killing me…
and everything I’ve ever been has added up to nothing
my eyes were closed when you came in
the dark is light, they’re open
and all these feelings have left me crumbling to my knees
we’re not alone through all of this
I’m not alone
you’re not alone…
all my life it’s all that I can find, it is all mine and on my mind
in my life it’s all that I can find, and it’s all mine, all mine, all mine
in my life it’s all that I can find, it is all mine and on my mind
in my life it’s all that I can find, it is all mine, all mine
in my life it’s all that I can find, it is all mine, end on my mind
in my life it’s all that I can find, and it’s all mine, all mine, all mine…
Erasable Ink on a Lost to-do List (scraps of me)
Last night I dreamt us wide awake
but awoke to find us sleeping (in different places)
fed empty promises and hollow words
until I forgot the things that I’d lived for
like caving in…endlessly
and walking backwards through everything
The old toy sale takes its tole on me
let strangers pick through scraps
the rest you will burry
but a sullen day will come and you will see
that what you gave away was everything
you could ever need
all the scraps of me
you only see
all the scraps of me
So save your guilty hours and charity
you found a place for me that I just can’t be
I gave you truth, gave you all of me
and it made me cheap and weak
now let me be…
yeah flee the scene
baby let me be
you only see
all the scraps of me…
In this sleep:/creatures
In this sleep I dream
a dark path through the trees
then nothing…
In this sleep I dream
a dark path, a clearing
then nothing, then nothing
a cautious creature, hollowed of everything
but the urning, is lurking in shadows behind me
salivating and hungry, and his face looks just like me
and I’m hunting, feeding, erasing everything…